My dad's 55th birthday!

So today is Jan, the 14th and my father would of been 55 years old. So I am still pregnant, I know the night is not over but at this point in the day I am very doubtful she will come. It makes me sad, but deep inside of me I know that he is watching over us. I will go to my doctor's appt tomorrow so we'll see what he tell's me. Maybe she will come on Friday which is my husband's birthday. Well back to my dad. He never liked celebrating his b-day I think I got that from him. He did not like us to sing to him or make a party. I just think he was shy because when we would give him his gift he would start crying. Oh and he would never open his gift until we left or my mom would open it for him. So I just think he was shy, and emotional. I miss him sooo much. I bet my mother misses him even more. I can't imagine feeling what she feels. I know it's a diffrent kind of emotion you know he was my father but he was her best friend her companion and someone to speak to when ever she felt lonely or just wanted to talk. You know he was always there for her and she was always there for him. She still cries and even more during day's like this one, his bairthday and all the holiday's. It's been a year and a few month's but it just seems it was like yesterday. My sister does not like going to his grave and which I kinda undersatnd her. She say's the only thing that is there is his body not his soul you know the dad that he was to us. I just feel sad, but life goes on and that is all that we can do, goes visit his grave and pray to him and for him. So tomorrow is another day and another day without him. We will always love him and miss him. He is always in our prayers and toughts. May he be in peace.